Right where I belong.

I saw this today and I'm pretty sure it was made for me, at this very moment in my life. I know that quotes like this are made to apply to everyone, at some point, but it still feels very personal and perfect.

Today is a day that I have been both eager for and dreading. I met with an adviser at CSU to talk about registering for classes. In my mind, she was going to be a mean professor that didn't really care about me or my future. Going from tiny Whitworth, with great Christian professors, to giant CSU has made me nervous. But, of course, it went great! She was sweet and funny and so helpful. I told someone today that I wasn't looking forward to actually going to classes in the fall, but I was glad to be back in Fort Collins. Registering for classes made me a little excited though! I'm anticipating a busy and probably stressful semester, but it will be good.

I am right back where I started from. After going to school out of state, transferring back to my hometown has its fair share of negative stigma. I grew up here, so I never imagined going to CSU. I didn't even apply to it as a "safety school." But then again, I didn't apply anywhere but Whitworth, making it ironic that I'm transferring. If transferring back to CSU wasn't enough, I decided to live at home too. For the most part, I love being home, so I don't really mind too much. But I can't help thinking of the negative stereotypes that go along with it. People are supposed to love college and freshman year is supposed to be great. All of this is to say...I feel a little bit like a failure, which is hard to handle. But I am not one to conform or to accept the most common route as the right one. Who cares if people think I was supposed to pick one college and stay there for four years? Who cares if living at home doesn't match the world's standards of cool or successful?

The future is scary and unknown, but it's under control...even if it's not mine. I really think I am right where I belong.